Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Petal Promises...

It had 14 petals...one more or one less and I cld've stolen you from fate...

Dangling by the Queen's Necklace, I sat staring at the beautiful crimson massacre at my feet...trying desperately to coax a "Yes" from a phantom petal...

My fears crashing with the waves...on the tetrapods...

I didnt believe in petal promises then...I dont believe in them now...but one more or one less...
Just in case...

I didnt hear you tip-toe upto me...
I still dont know how long you stood there watching me trying to cajole those petals...

"No-silly-boy-I-dont-love-you" and a smiling voice...

I looked up to see you staring through those mischievously big black eyes...from behind those naughty strands of hair playing with the sea-breeze...which you never tired of pulling behind your ears...

Your head nodded a happy "No-I-really-really-dont"...
N those long dancing earrings agreed in unison...

I stood transfixed...with that stupid lump in my throat...wishing I cld grab you in my arms...n run over those tetrapods...across the sea...far far away...

Your hand waved me back from my reverie...n I stupidly thrust forward the long-stemmed-by-now-bald rose...

Realization dawned n I wanted to run away again...over those same tetrapods, into that same sea...this time, alone...to hide under my mountain of mortification...

But an extended ivory arm took that mockery of a rose...

Come-walk-with-me...

N I did...

Stealing furtive glances...n knowing...

I miss the way u held that bald rose...n locked your little finger in mine...

I miss You...your silent smiling understanding...

I miss being in love...
...when Forevers came naturally...
...and Believably...

9 comments:

WomanInLove said...

The way you write..I guess one would love to have that bald rose once in their hands :)

Missing someone is a feeling that one cherishes as long as you miss the person..and then even that "missing" feeling is missed

I think "Forevers" do exist..but when they come one never knows

Thanks for the sequel !
A few more are welcome :)

moonstruckmoth said...

Thanks Rajita...
I hadnt meant it as a sequel tho'...I actually avoid "those" thoughts...I invariably end up feeling very sad...

But smtimes, smthng gets thru those defences...

I do agree that missing smone is smthng we all cherish...it's hard to ignore a part of ur life that has affected u so much...n so deeply...but I do hope I wont get to the point where I'll start missing "missing" :)

Thanks again for dropping in :)

Kavita Arvind said...

i like the nice little lace that you weave with words... i wish i was even a splash as romantic as you... sigh... loved the little one with dobbing pigtails from your earlier post... i think i am going to paint her!!!

moonstruckmoth said...

Kavita, u shd've seen that li'l girl...she was sooo cute, for a brief dark moment, I wished I were a crook, so I cld kidnap her ;-)

Such a doll she was!

Will be looking forward to that painting :)

v said...

I just love the way you write..all your posts seem so poetic in a way and i almost always have a beautiful picture while reading them :)

moonstruckmoth said...

Thanks perplexed...I'll take that as a compliment ;-)
I really dunno...I just put down in words the things that move me...the rest is in the mind of the reader I guess :)

Do keep dropping in :)

Namrta Batra said...

A very subtle and appealing style of writing, yet could almost sense the emotions..!

moonstruckmoth said...

Thanks for the compliments Namrta :)
N for dropping in too!

song of a crow said...

you are not at all romantic. heartless...i hate you i hate you i hate you